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2006-10-28T16:44:00.000+08:00

stranded sa highway

2006-05-21T01:01:00.000+08:00

akalain mong libre pa la internet dito sa jolibee..masarap mastranded at the same time..kadiri....hahaha masarap ang starbucks pero hindi masaya mawalan ng sasakyan pabalik...

Mabuti na lang parating na parents ni topher...

kawawa naman rin kame

ang gulo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-27T12:07:00.000+08:00

Gulo ng palad...ang buhay mo....gulo ng palad..hahahaha

believe it or not

2006-03-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

ending something is very hard. i know, i feel it right now but what can we do? being together again will only mean that we are slowly killing ourselves. i hurt. you hurt. What is the point. But i do regret a lot but what can regret do? today let us just continue with our lives.

2006-03-21T13:07:00.000+08:00

why do bad things happen to good people?

Nice day today

2006-03-03T14:42:00.000+08:00

usually pag friday wala na akong kinakain kung hindi lupa na lamang. Buti na lang to the rescue si BUBU.hehehe.

Namimiss ko na ang ganito. Worry free kahit isang araw lang.

Haaay. CSC na naman tonight .Grabe. Sana lang hindi tumagal ng 10 years to no?

LAst night was also a blast. Si SUEgat ay lasing grabe. NAgeenglish at nagpapaautograph pa kay JUAn lUNa. hahahaha.

sana ganito lagi

BLue cats dyes fast

2006-03-01T15:21:00.000+08:00

I stumbled into a blue cat on my way here. It was scary and funny at the same time. Though I'm sure that it's not the cat's real fur color, it freaked me out a little bit.

HAyy... Retorika is coming very soon. Go irvin...

topher

2006-02-20T15:55:00.000+08:00

bakit hindi ka nagrereply.

Nasaan ka na ba?

Mga bagay na aking naiiisip...

2006-02-10T09:53:00.000+08:00

Minsan ko lang naisip na what if....ganito, ganyan.

Kami o hindi?

kami o hindi?

Magkasama kami o hindi.

Kaibigan lang ba o hindi?

Ang hirap magsulat kung alam mong may masasaktan ka kapag may sinulat kang tunay mong nararamdaman. O kung hindi niya alam kung ano ang sinasabi mo. Mahirap magsulat sa parehong kaso.

Hindi kita matanong dahil alam ko ang sasabihin mo. Ano na naman yan? Kilala na naman natin ang isa't isa. Lagi kang nariyan. Palagi. Pero hanggang kelan?

Ang hirap magtype. Matigas ang keyboard. Parang ikaw. Hindi mapindot. Hindi makapa.

Back to Basics

2006-01-17T16:03:00.000+08:00

Hello, obvious ba na nagsawa ako sa mga komplikadong mga templates kaya ito, aayusin ko muna buhay ko bago ang lahat.

Sa mga taong nagbabasa pa ng blog ko...maraming salamat sa inyo. Sana hindi kayo magsawa sa pagtangkilik. Minsan lalagyan ko ng kahulugan ang mga sinasabi ko. Ok.

Sayo topher, alam ko namang nagbabasa ka pa rin ng blog ko. Hello.

Sa mga LAYB, walang hanngang patawad sa inyo, lam niyo na kung bakit. Basta.

Irvin, Quel, Aps...wala lang miss ko na kayong mga taong mahilig talaga sa blog ever since the world began. Irvin, kabado talaga ako sa eng105...huhuhuhu...aps, paramdam ka naman.

May blog pa ba si bananaducky? sana meron pa. Ano ba yan, dami ko ata sinasabi. eeww.

Basta. Back to basics muna.

weird dito

2006-01-10T16:38:00.000+08:00

ang weird, I actually like staying in my new place...balik demarces na naman ako eh...so un..masaya lang

2006-01-05T09:21:00.000+08:00

yayayayaya!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

its so been a while..

2005-12-13T17:24:00.000+08:00

Like it's been ages since i wrote here and i have no idea of what has been happening to the rest of the blog world. Like Ma'am Amy and LAYB (that I miss so much) and many other people. But here i am so alone and it's like I'm starting all over again.

So what's been up?

Nothing. I'm dead tired here.

Fresh

2005-08-31T23:14:00.000+08:00

Walang nagbabasa ng blog ko. So wala ding makakaalam ng mga pinagsasasabi ko dito.

Nagbago na ang buhay ko sa tingin ko. Panahon na para itapon ang kahapon at magsimula ulit.

MaTAGAL na proseso alam ko pero katabi ko naman si Bubu kaya sa tingin ko mapapadali na ang lahat. Kaya ko to. Tangina dito na magsisimula ang lahat.

tangina bago na!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-08-04T18:31:00.000+08:00

ano,kabugin kayo..very urban na ang feel ng aking blogshit.....hahahahahhahahaha..

pero im still the bitter old me. pero kebs lang....

marami na akong namimiss...

miss ko na ang layb...my old friends....haaaaay....topher.

____________________

wala alng..im pissed sa bagong bahay...nakakainis....tangina talaga...mabasa man nila to ..i dont really give a fuck. Hindi ko naman kasalanan na wala silang ibang friends and wala silang boyfriends. and most of all. ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT THEY HAVE THE MOST.......................ewan..........tangina ........yoko na lang magsalita.

basta kayo,maging bukas an isip niyo. wag kayong bobo. ok?

hate me if you will. I hate you too.

Salamat asawa ko

2005-05-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

thanks tlaga sa tulong mo.

malapit na matapos ang summer at mamimiss kita pero di bali malapit na ang uno. Makikita na kita ulit.

Salamat mahal ko.

Keep the lights on.

2005-05-17T13:25:00.000+08:00

I like to see things, so keep the lights on.

This is the moment. Joke!

2005-05-03T14:21:00.000+08:00

Hindi ako mahilig sa saging.

Sa totoo lang, hindi na nga ako nakakain ng saging sa matagal na panahon na rin. Hindi ko rin kasi gusto ang epekto nito sa katawan. Alam mo na, un mahihirapan kang maglabas ng iyong "sama ng loob".

Minsan akong napadaan sa palengke at nakita ko na maraming uri ng saging ang nakahilera kasama ang ibang mga prutas. Hindi ko alam ang bibilhin kong prutas, kaya tinananong ko sila. "Sino ba sa inyo ang gusto ng umalis dito?". Halos mabingi ako sa lakas ng kanilang mga hiyaw. HIndi ko na maintindihan ang kanilang mga sinasabi. Lahat sila gusto na umalis sa palengke. Napansin ko ang isang maliit na saging na hindi nagsasalita. Halos mabubulok na ang saging na ito, sobra na nga yata sa hinog at ilang beses na sigurong bumagsak. Inilagay ko ito sa aking supot at binayaran ko ang tindera ng sampung piso. Sabi niya wag na. Sabi ko sige na.Umalis na ako dala ang saging.

Paguwi ko sa bahay, nakita ko ang saging na naiyak. Sinabi ko na hindi siya dapat magalala, hindi ko siya kakainin. At lalo pa yata itong umiyak.

Sabi niya, umiiiyak siya sa tuwa dahil sa wakas ay mapipili na rin siya at sa wakas ay matatapos na kanyang buhay. Ilang beses na siyang nahulog, nabasa, napili ngunit binalik, ihinagis at pinindot-pindot. Ngayon sa wakas ay magagagawa na niya ang kaniyang tungkulin bilang saging. Nagmakawa siyang kainin ko na siya.

Sabi ko hindi ako mahilig sa saging.

2005-04-30T12:16:00.000+08:00

i hate this blog.

Amy effect?

takas

2005-04-28T13:56:00.000+08:00

ano ka ngayon madrid......

ginagamit ko ang net ng wlang paalam.

hahahahah..

comsci invasion.....

miss ko na nga pla kyo rav,gen thea and all....mwah...all means tallyn nga pla.

hehehehhe....

bilis...titingin k na...

hahahahahhaha

bobo ka madrid!!!!!!!!!!

Bang bang

2005-04-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

Hindi pa ako nakakahawak ng baril kahit kailan. Laruan na baril oo pero totoo, hindi pa. May baril ang lolo ko at minsan ko na iyon nakita nang minsang mag-away ang daddy at tito ko. Hindi ako takot sa baril. Sa totoo lang, nais kong hawakan ang baril na iyon. Itutok at kalabitin.

Minsan na akong nanaginip na halos lahat ng lalaking makita ko, binabaril ko sa ulo. Deretso sa utak. Nakikita ko ang bawat dugong sumasabog sa kanilang bumbunan. Gusto ko ang pakiramdam. Para ba akong nagkaroon ng kakaibang kapangyarihan. Tila baga ako'y isang dios na hawak ang buhay ng isang tao o marami. Ang panaginip na iyon ay hindi ko na nakalimutan.

Noong isang linggo, nakapanood ako ng pelikula tungkol sa pambubuli sa eskwelahan. Sa Amerika ang seting. Ang mga batang binubuli ay naghangad ng katarungan at ang naisip nilang paraan ay tadtatrin ng bala ang buong eskwelahan. Doon mamamatay ang mga batang kinakawawa sila. Ngunit ksama ring mamamatay ang mga batang walang kinalaman o mga katulad din nila na kinawawa. Hindi natuloy ang pamamaril. Nakonsensya ang isang kasama.Ipinagpatuloy ang kwento ng pamamaril sa isang dula na tungkol sa nasabing sitwasyon. Pamamaril.Pagkapahiya. Pagpapahiya. Pagkamatay. Konsensiya. Pagkabuhay. Ang dula ay pinamagatang Bang Bang,You're Dead.

Naisip ko tuloy ang mga katulad na pangyayari sa buhay ko. Ninais ko tuloy na magkaroon ng baril. Baril ng kapangyarihan, hustisiya at pagkakapantay-pantay. Hindi lamang para sa akin kung hindi para sa maraming tao na katulad ko ay naghahanap ng makabuluhang sistema dito sa mundo.

Kapag nagka-baril ako, hulaan mo kung sino ang una kong babarilin.

Bang.

favorite.

2005-04-18T11:47:00.001+08:00

I am once again bleeding.

Not mainly because of you but i may say it is (somehow), indirectly?

You are my favorite scar.

math shmath

2005-03-31T17:14:00.000+08:00

putangina tlaga..

i hate math and it hates me too.

just finished finals....well, what did I think?...

I suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

enough said. that thing just pisses me off. what the fuck ever!!!!!!!!!

i am but excited for the swimming tomorrow...whatever! i just want to swim dammit!....

and of course, 9 months of bliss....hahahaha....tomorrow!!!!!!!..

alaabyuhbubu!!!!!!

eat your hearts out boys whose buggin me on friendster.....y'all want my small boobs?....dream on!

heheheheheh

sorrry......hang over...algebraic expressions...overload.

dead.

laman

2005-03-14T16:47:00.000+08:00

Ikaw na munting damo na kahit anogn gawin kong putol o sunog sa iyo ay hindi pa rin matinag.

Laman ka ng bawat aking daraanan,bawat kainin, bawat higaan.

Ikaw na naman.

Ikaw pa rin.

Sa lahat ng aking pagtatanim, wala akong naaning mabuti dahil sa presensya mo. Lagi kang nariyan hinihigop ang sustansya ng aking mga halaman.

Laman ka ng aking lupa.

Laman ka ng aking hardin.

Ikaw na naman.

Ikaw pa rin.

status

2005-03-02T18:33:00.000+08:00

wala naman akong magawa ngayon.

things are going well (ok lang).

hindi na ako masyadong suicidal. masarap naman ang buhay ko ngayon. kahit papapno ngakakaroon ng kulay na mganda.

msaya ang friends ko ngayon. ok silang kasam...walang mga negavibes from them....basta lover and friends ay masaya..other than that is not cool....

i miss my old friends but its ok....

la lang.

SABI KO...

2005-02-23T11:56:00.000+08:00

Sabi ko kasi kunin mo na ako.

bakit ayaw makinig ng dios kapag nagdarasal ka sa kanya. Sabi ko sa kanya kunin niya na ako. pero hindi pa rin nakikinig.

inuntog ko ang aking ulo ng paulit ulit sa pader, umaasang sa bawat kalabog, maririnig niya na ako sa wakas. Pero hindi pa rin.

Bakit hindi ka nakikinig?

Inulit ko pa. Sa may bandang lugar na wlang tao para siya lan ang makakarinig saking pero hindi niya pa rin ako narinig.

Nilaksan ko ang aking pagiyak.

parang wala siyang narinig.

Sinugatan ko ang aking manipis na balat paulit-ulit. Sa pagasang na maririrnig niya ang patak ng dugo. Pinaulit-ulit ko ito.

Hindi pa rin niya ako narinig.

Kunin mo na ako.

Dahil wala nang nagbabasa sa blog ko.

2005-02-15T21:12:00.000+08:00

marahil, dumating na sa punto kung saan dapat ng siguro itigil na ang kalokohang ito.

ngunit sa isang banda, hindi naman talaga para sa inyo ang blog na ito, para sa akin lang. Samakatuwid tuloy pa rin ang aking pagsusulat.

Bleh!

Para sa mga kapatid sa sugat.

2005-01-28T11:26:00.000+08:00

Matagal na panahon na rin ang nakakalipas, matagal na akong hindi nahinga. Nadugo. Hindi ko na nasusugatan ang aking sarili. Itim na dugo ay wala na. Bughaw naman.

Sa naudlot nasugat, naisip ko ang aking mga kapatid na sumasamba sa dilim. Mabuti pa sila, nadugo tuwing ikalawang araw ng linggo.

Kagabi, sinubukan kong sugatan ang aking sarili. Hindi dumugo. Makunat na ang balat na hindi nababanat.

Kailangang hasain ang aking sandata.

Mga kapatid, maaari bang tulungan ninyo ako sa pagahasa muli ng sandatang tila liwanag sa dilim. nakakapangulila ang hindi ko pagkita sa mga sugat ninyo.

Nais ko nang muli sugatan ang aking sarili.

blank as hell

2005-01-14T11:52:00.000+08:00

Last night was the most forgot night in the history of my memory. I really cannot remeber a thing. I have never been blank in my life.

What I fear is the things I might have said to people that I was with.

Alcohol can really make you forget.

But you know what, that incident actually made me feel good.

In the first time in my life, I did not think. I just did what I felt like doing. It is like your last day here in earth wherein you dont care anymore.

I liked that feeling.

I would like to do it again.

ps. I remember holding someone's hand. And it felt good.

its the time of year...

2004-12-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

happy Holidays to y'all!...MAn, its been soooooooooo long since i've posted somethihng here...and its all been very depressing (i know).

So i guess i'll be giving you all a break from the pathetic and synical old me...but not for long! you know I'll be back wiht more depressing stuff for all of y'all like me. BUt not now...cause its the time of year to be merry and jolly and shi like that.

I miss layb peeps. I am not learning anything substancial lately and it is killng me. All I am learning for the past few weeks are....err....gay lingo. Soc lingo to be exact.

You know I promised myself and my friends to never b a "soc". you know what i mean. I do not need to elaborate. That promised I will keep.

i would love to see you all next year.

Merry Christmas to all of you!

happy new year!

Peace!

Bury me

2004-12-04T20:38:00.000+08:00

CAn i come with you as you leave this world of traps and dungeons?

I envy you for you are in peace.

Love subsist in your shadow, and I weep.

CAn I come with you.

Like the vegetables that you used to give me, they are gone and digested. Where are you?

Can I come with you?

Tomorrow I will cry.

But not because you are gone, but because I want you to take me away.

Can I come with you?

I shall be buried with you.

For "Papang" I love you.

Not me.

2004-12-03T11:11:00.000+08:00

I am missing myself.

When was thelast time I had a sound conversation with me?

I cant remember.

I have changed.

But not quite.

And if I bleed!

2004-11-22T22:16:00.001+08:00

I bled, far , too far from you.

I did not think of you, I did not think. I just feel. I felt.

Inside though far, I will forever bleed.

But not for you.

Pain but not from you, it's from inside. Though far.

But I did not bleed for you.

I just bleed.

Knowing that you too will bleed someday.Not now,maybe tomorrow.

And if I bleed!

2004-11-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

Agony Temporarily Gone.

2004-11-16T15:11:00.000+08:00

The formula for the ultimate pain-relief caused by monthly period: A nice day with your loved one. (beau)

Or you can take a pill.

Choose now, die later. You decide!

Another Hot day

2004-11-12T13:07:00.000+08:00

Matapos umulan ng malakas kagabi, napakainit ngayon sa lb.

Speaking of kagabi, syempre unang weeek dito sa lb, kaya, gimik muna.

2 words: Dull. Crowd.

Kung hindi ko pa kasama si kambal, hindi talaga ako mgeenjoy. Buti na lang I saw ma'am Amy ulit. I missed her.

And I/we miss 'them". Good thing nagparamdam sila. Ok, buhay na naman.

Wag sanang magagalit ang iba diyan. Inosenteng paghanga lang naman ito.

Haaayyyy.

Miss na kita.

Thursday is In my head.

2004-11-09T15:05:00.001+08:00

Tis the season, its 2nd sem everybody! Glad everyone is back, but it seems all of them are going somewhere not pleasant. Its either they are dismissed or LOA.

All of us are having troubles at home or outside. We are indeed growing up. The problems seems to be more complicated these days.

Hell, I sank my ears in THursday's music. Maybe for a while I can forget complication.

After a week of pure hell ( did i mention failed suicide last thursday? Tanga ko tlaga!), I try to let those negative things go, but thursday's music does not help, it heightens the anger and sorrow in me.

I just want to scream with them. Just let it all out.

Jesus, what is happening to me?

I have a prOblem with letting myself out there. I'm just here hiding my true feelings and whatevers. I have so many things that I want to say but I cant. Because I fear you.

Cross out your eyes everyone, because it is an ugly world.

Back in the flesh are the demons existing today.

They are you.

IS Paris in Flames?

2004-11-09T15:05:00.000+08:00

Are we standing on the edge?

Perhaps we are, but we would rather stay there than be anywhere else and we know that is very dangerous. But as long as we are together nothing seems to be too dangerous.

And so we continue to stand on the edge.

Seting the flames for further hurt.

PAris is in flames.

HUSh.

I need water.

yey!

2004-11-01T17:09:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 4th to yah!!!!!!!!!!!

its seems forever but it's....NOT!

MAhaL ko KAyo!...Ikaw pala!.....heheheheh

LuvYAh!

2004-10-30T14:35:00.000+08:00

Needless to say that my lsat post was a bit, uhm....I dont kow, whatever.

It seems that our lives right now are going through a tough stage.

my two friends are going through tough time with mommies and others, well i dont know, and me, in hell as always.

this is supposed to be a break, oh, i have a break alright, a breakdown!

I have a good relationship with my beau but i blew it up, because of these problems. I just hope he can understand. And no, i dont think this just a simle PMS. i hope it is.

Evryone is having probs, either being maried early or being pregnant or havng stupid parents or...whatevr. This life oficially sucks and who is to blame?

I dont know!

PS: Ei, azrhael, sorry.Things just got tied up. You know i love you so much. Hope you understand. I miss you

I hate this!

2004-10-27T20:56:00.000+08:00

I dont know what just happen, I give a joke..and thats it, the next thing you know, i'm picking a fight.

I tend to do this stuff ( hey, if you know me, you would know) Its just me, if you get offended, well that is not my problem anymore.I hate this.

Someone will never ever understand me.

Well a few people do.

1. Gen
2.Thea
3.Topher

And I guest that is just it, besides them, no one seems to be in my wavelenght.

Did you notice that my beau is not included, I could not "get" him too, but jesus, can he be so, so damn, sensitive, it was just a joke, And I was not even finished!... He just ignored me the whole time...IN YM!( for fucking sake, in chat?A fight? Cmon!)

Fuck that! How Low can you go!

Grow Up man!

Or Im gon' call it quits! I mean it.

I hope you read this.

Once a playah......well...

2004-10-25T17:20:00.000+08:00

A story of a boi...who wants to play....

Now look who's married at 18?

yes, the biggest in history of palying!, the greatest player is.....uhmm...Lets not mention his name..."fubu" na lang.

I dated him, once too many times...but that is it. Not hoping for more kasi nga, player...

Tapos, kahapon ko lang nalaman na ...he got some bitch preggy.4 months.

That could have been me kung sakaling nagpaloko ako sa kanya.

Buti n lang.

pero , naawa ako sa kanya, kasi tanga pa siya eh...saka hayok pa siya sa laman...kawawa lang ang bata.

And to top it all off...

HE STILL HITS ON ME.

may asawa na, playah pa rin.

HAaaaayyyy.

dahil sa maling akala,,,

2004-10-23T17:58:00.000+08:00

Ayusin ko pa ng blog na ito....kaya pasensiya na kung magulo ha....basta, aayusin ko to pramis...

Ngayon ko lang ulit nakasama si abi...Mabuti naman....

Dati, nagtatago ako sa kanya eh...nagayon, la, namiss ko rin ang bruha.Hehehhehe,/....piz tayo tol!

Birthday bukas ni mheylot!, sana masaya...kasama si rj, ab, nagaaya nanaman sa dorm(thea, gen, naaalala mo?...un dati?aba, ganun pa rin ang dali....fubu?)

Sa lahat ng mga magdedebut....happy, sana kayo!

Tigilan ang pukehan!!!!!!!!!!

My lac!

2004-10-22T10:39:00.000+08:00

It is so difficulttobe an ate...itsjust pure b.s!

I just hope, this wont happen tome when I have kids of my own....well, i want to have a good life whrn i do have kids.

This is just not the time to have them.I should know (right azrhael?)

Quick post lang, I need to get my ish right!

hollah back peeps aayt?

now....

2004-10-19T19:11:00.000+08:00

How mushy can I be?

I am now listening to the used's TAKE IT AWAY... but I miss my pure bliss. I remember you.

I miss you.

But it will go away tommorow....as I watch you come take me away ....tommorow...

But for now....hell....

Why the HELL?

2004-10-17T14:41:00.000+08:00

Why lie? I need beer.

Seriously man, I think I might be coming down with something....An old friend maybe, damn, depression!

This is not an unfamilliar ground. I've been down with this since..hell knows when... I live for this friend of mine. I cannot seem to let go.

Therefore I prescribed myself with lots of nicotine and alcohol.

Drunk from the octoberfest in our place?..MAybe, maybe not. I'm drunk from the hell brought-abouts of this life and I think i will need more than a twelve-step program for this.

Alcohol problem leads to another thing.

I'm not yet mentioning the diferent types of "prescription" I use.

Needless to mention, I think you all know that.

You in the other hand are in no position to judge me. I tell you, you have no idea what am I going through.

Hell is nowhere down there, its here.

But why?

Have No Fear

2004-10-15T18:59:00.000+08:00

I cannot seem to get anything right these days.

Just got excited from having to hold a keyboard again. Its been ages. An anonymous reader passed by and asked who the hell am i?

Well, i've been asking that same question all my life.

I have never been more excited to see blood than last two days ago. It felt like a claening of many things....of the past, of the present and most appropriately the future. A lesson has been learned people.

Sometimes, urges must not be acknowledged to avoid further paranoia.

I used to be afraid of blood.

Now, I embraced it.

Fear of something may sometimes be helpful.

I hope, this is right.

ah... gnun ba?

2004-10-08T11:32:00.000+08:00

Tapos bobo ka pa.

Minsan kasi wag ka nang magsalita.

Madals ka ng nakakasakit, madaldal ka kasi, lagi mo na lang sinsabi ang LAHAT ng naiisip mo kahit di naman dapat.

Tinutulak mo sa bangin ang taong nagpapasaya sayo ng sobra sobra.

Tangina, ang bobo mo!!!!!!!!!!!!

ika nga ng karayom........"titi ng ama!!!!!!!"

palibhasa kasi puro damo na ang nasa utak mo. Dugo mo, amoy damo na,lasang damo na rin yan.

Hindi ako magtataka kapag lahat ng mahal mo, iniwan ka na.

Bobo mo kasi!!!!!!!!!!!!

kapag hindi ka niya pinatawad, pagtatawan kita. Ayan, pakasalan mo ang damo mo!!!!!!!!!!!1

tangina, ang bobo mo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Malupit na confession

2004-10-05T08:20:00.000+08:00

Damong ligaw

Damong ligaw.
Damong umiilaw.
Damong inililigaw.
Damong iniiilawan.

Damong sunog.
Damong sinusunog.
Damong isinisuot.
DAmong nanunuot.

Damong malakas.
Damong bubuhat sa’yo paitaas.

Damong ligaw.
Damong nanliligaw.

Damong ikaw.
Damong ako.

Nasan ang damo?
Ayun, naliligaw.

Nagaapoy ang bawat hithit.
Umiikot sa loob ang luha at dugo ng buhay.
Mga tira-tirang piraso ng pusong winsak.
Pagkaulila sa masayang kahapon.
Ang kinain sa buong araw ngayon.

Umuusok ang bawat pagbuga.
Kalakip nito ay paglaya.

naglokoloko lang....

2004-09-30T09:45:00.000+08:00

nagloloko ang blog na ito....

kzzzt!kzzzt!

NAkita kita na may ksamang iba, umiyak ako hindi dahil nasaktan ako. Umiyak ako kasi nadapa ak ang pagkakita ko sa inyo. NAiyak ako s katangahan ko.

Sana hindi ko na lang kayo nakita para hindi na lang ako nadapa.

TAngina, tanga!!!!!

WAg mabahala...nagloloko lang ang blog ko at ako.

loko-loko!!!!

2004-09-30T09:24:00.000+08:00

NAgloloko ang blog na ito. PArang yun may ari, lokoloko...

Nakita ko siya, may ksamang iba. Umiyak ako. HIndi dahil nasaktan ako, kung hindi dahil, nagpagkakita ko sa kanila, nadapa ako. Masakit madapa s batuhan.

Pero hindi ako nasugatan. Pasa lang.Pero masakit pa rin ang madapa. Mas masakit tanggapin at malaman na nadapa ka, dahil sa katangahan mo.

Tanga! TAngina!

Wag mo kong paniwalaan....nagloloko lang ang blog ko, at lokoloko lang ako!

she BANGS!!!!!

2004-09-28T08:52:00.000+08:00

I have cut myself once again. My hair that is. I dont know, i just had this urge to get razors and just chop my locks. And damn, do I look like a fool. Well not really. I look like that European rocker chick that I grew up to listening. My friend calls me Madonna. And i take it as a compliment. Some peeps say that I look like a girl from the seventies. HOw cool is that?!

The perfect outfit for my new do is chucks, sunglasses, vintage shirt, worn out jeans and hell a lot of atitude!:)

Last night I had dinner with most of my dormmates and it was a lot of fun, i'm glad to know that hey, i have other people outside my circle.

But damn, how i miss my circle.

I miss going out.

I miss "hUnting" days.

My hunting days are over.(or is it?)

Somewhere between these lines, i remember my bestfriend. We havent seen each other for a while now, but we talk, hell yeah we really talk for like hours about absolutely nothing. Well, nothing means sex. He got this huge thing. I can't picture it but .......I think i'm beginning to.

Honestly speaking, my haircut is a metaphor for my deep desire to change my life (again) and the hair is just the start of it all.

Life is nothing but virgin sore eyes....

2004-09-23T10:03:00.000+08:00

Lahat ng bagay ay may katapusan...or may pause....

parang nitong mga nakalipas na araw, naging pause ang buhay estudyante ko. Parang day off kumbaga. Ang sarap din pala na magpakatambay minsan, madalas.

Pero that does not mean na ganun na lang yun, well maron akong'kamiong pang sub sa mga araw na mainit at hindi ako nakakapasok sa school.

we are making days much hotter than it's supposed to be.

*****

an article in seventeen mag had a topic on the concept of virginity.

It had this quite awakening definition that made me realized that hell, most of people confessing they are virgins(context of sex w/out penetration) are actually not.

People, "you" are not virgins anymore.

Fuck seventeen magazine!

Fuck virginity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is merely a concept that people bother themselves with.

But I hate that fact that I'm still one of those people who are hanged up on this concept. Therefore, virgin.

frogs............

2004-09-17T13:06:00.000+08:00

my huSband lives and breathes....FROGS................

HAHHAHHHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i've never seen anyone so chicken about stupid frogs........well, that's why i love him...(partly)....hehhehehe........

kokak!

.....(mum).....

2004-09-15T10:50:00.000+08:00

I just cant get anything in my head right now. Maybe because I did not get enough sleep last night.I wonder why? I slept at 12am. I think that is somewhat early.But i feel like i only slept for like an hour.

As i read a few suicidal notes and poems, i cant help but wonder.....

Kung mamamatay ka na bukas, bakit hindi pa ngayon?

******

I just cant seem to get anything OUT of my head. I feel so empty. As I listen to some guitar-meshed beats and screming heads of some rockstar, I cant help but think(again) where my life is headed. I feel as though, I keep going on circles. i wish somebody would have told me that life would be like this. One minute you are happy but innside you feel nothing. And the other minute you feel so hurt but again feeling hallow. I dont know, I'm losing hope in the Human Race. I think it is going nowhere. And right now i'm questioning my own life.

My own existence.

This may not make any sense. But what the hell, does anything really make sense?

I dont know what the hel am i saying. AGain, i'm bombarded by the things around me.FUCK THIS!

2004-09-13T10:41:00.000+08:00

with the best smile you gotlets start pedalling really hard
even if the wind wants to push you back
dont be discouragedaiming for the vast ocean that will tell you softly...
a strength that wins over sorrow
your eyes will someday baskin the light and start to
shine turn your belief to go on and not give up into the
courage that leads to tomorrow stand with your back straight
and take a deep breath nothing will change if you always look don
if you walk along the rail of your heart without looking back
your dreams will all come true your tears will someday
shine brighter than jewels turn your pursuit for dreams
witout giving into the strength that leads to tomorrow

-roelmanuel-

(astig no?)

Just When I thought....

2004-09-13T10:15:00.000+08:00

Just when i thought i can go on like this....

A devil with wings.....soon to be an angel...

damn, I just cant stop...being what i really am....well, today not in action but it STILL in my thoughts....

I am trying my best not to do this....but i just cant help myself.....

i am in this road again.....a croosroad....I have to choose only one....

when is the time to choose?.....

once a playah...always a playah?!....magisip ka hazel!!!!!!

Ako to at wala ng iba!

2004-09-10T09:58:00.000+08:00

madalas mo kong makikita sa kalsada, may hawak na sandata.
sandata at kalasag laban sa mapang-aping dikta ng ngayon.
sandata ng sining na nasa kamay ng isang mandirigmang pilit na lumalaban sa hinagpis na dulot ng balikong kapaligiran.
madalas rin akong nagmamasid at nagaabang ng kaaway.
at kung makita ko sya, agad akong susugod.
ako ay isang mandirigma.
kalasag ko ang kahapon.
sandata ko ay SINING.

Drama Galore ba? Dito na, Dito pa....

2004-09-08T09:41:00.000+08:00

alright, im going to lay this down once and for all......

Nagtampo ako sa isa sa mga tropa ko (rhumcoke, di ikaw yun), i just feel like being nothing beside her...

pinagtatabuyan, shit, that really hurts....so i resort to distance and it sort of gave me breathing space, but still the hurt is there.

on one acount, I guess i made some mistakes....but heck, I dont deserve to get ths treatment.

But whatever I do or they do, i cant seem to get mad at them. I talked. We talked. And now all is well.

But I still miss us.

*****

I look forward to thursday. Kambal will be with us.

kamabal

2004-09-06T10:41:00.000+08:00

hahahahah......

gusto ng noise jam......

now na....

Hail the past/Kulay ng buhay

2004-09-03T10:26:00.000+08:00

How long have we not been together?....this sem sucks coz we have not seen each other for quite a long time, i miss the times when we just hang out and practically do nothing. But we have our own lives and we must live it.

I just miss us.

Tsk!...hail to the past!, may it remain with us always.

*****

ok, papangit na ng papangit ang blog na ito,...

parang buhay, habang tumatagal, pumapangit....pahirap ng pahirap...pero, masaya pa rin....lalo na kapag may
mga kaagapay ka sa bawat paghakbang mo dito sa lupa.

*******

Pula ang kulay ng lupa at ng puso. Bughaw naman ang kulay ng tubig at ng langit.

Ngunit Itim pa rin ang pinakamatingkad na kulay sa mundo.

Ayoko ng itim na lipstick.

Ok na!!!

2004-09-01T10:17:00.000+08:00

yahey!!!!

ok, andito kambal ko. Lasang mamon!....hehehehe,.....kikiss payan oh?....hehehe....

haaay....andaming papers na dapat tapusin, kaya naman andito lang ako, nakatungangaaaaaaa.......ang hirap maging matinong istudyante.

*****

60 days.

Ain't love grand? Kahit walang pera.masaya kami. Sobrang saya!

I think i'm getting used to this. Sana lang wag, kasi paano pag nawala, edi para na rin akong nawalan ng kanang paa.

pero ginusto ko to, ayaw ko tong mwala, therefore i will do anything in my power not to let this go.

****I love you so much!****

Mother Fucker!!!!

2004-08-31T17:43:00.000+08:00

this sucks!...nagloloko ang blogger.puta!

low and behold.....the handmaid of the motherfucker!

this does not make any sense at all......define sense!

kagabi......

2004-08-27T10:21:00.000+08:00

wala lang ito, gusto ko lang magsalita, magsulat.

kagabi, someone took the risk. hindi maganda ang resulta pero nevertheless at very brave act. Astig sya! bilib ako sa lakas ng loob nya.

Kagabi rin, may nagpatayan pala sa may amin. Ang nagagawa talaga ng pagseselos. Wla pa lang namatay. Muntikan lang.

kagabi, malamig. pero mainit din.

gets?

i am not making sense...I'm out!

Never.....( a poem of promise)

2004-08-26T09:54:00.000+08:00

i'll never be anyone that I am not.
I'll never be someone that I hate.
I'll never do what i dont want to do.
I'll never wear a pink and yellow skirt.
I'll never never wear a red lipstick.
I'll never eat a rotten egg.

I'll never rest in the arms of NOT loving arms.
I'll never get tired of the blissful love of the present.
I'll never leave anyone that counts on me.
I'll never cease to erase your fear.

I'll never.......................

Usapang PUKE!!!!

2004-08-25T10:38:00.000+08:00

oo, tapos na ako sa breasts, puke naman....heheheh...

Nakita mo na ba ang puke mo?...Kung kao ang tatanungin mo...sasabihin ko, OO!

it happened when I watched an episode of sex and the city, tapos, yun nga...parang naengganyo ako tingnan kung ano nga itsura ng akin...

man, I will tell you, it is a very hard task......masakit sa likod, tapos mahirap humanap ng right light and spot para tuluyahn mong makita ito....but luckily i did, and i was amazed at how mine looked.....its like a foreign object, so unfamiliar...pero antagal nya na sakin diba?....pero...amazing..in fairness....

i think the vagina is not only a mere part of a woman's body but symbol for women...

vagina vagina vagina vagina........

haaayyy.....I'm so glad that i'm a woman!

now, I ask you, NAKITA MO NA BA ANG PUKE MO?

*******
I'm still hanged up on last night's film showing of the vagina monolouges....minsan, galit na rin ang vaginako...if could say something it would say.."bakit ngayon ka lang?"...hehehehehe.....hi sa asawa ko! at sa penis nya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Day I "woke" Up

2004-08-23T10:13:00.000+08:00

Finally, I really woke up from the strain of a long and ongoing disturbed by a few moments of happy dreams, but still nonetheless a nightmare in itself. I'm so glad i did. Now, I am free.

Free from the strains of yesterday's seem-like-forever nightmare.

I will not close my eyes for I may never see again the dream that I am living now. For this is what I oped for all my life, now that I have it, i will never let it go.For no other reasons.

I woke up from a nightmare and find myself in dreamland where I am treated the way that I want to be. In a place where tears of agony are forbiden and i can only smile about every minute and second that I am here.

I am in the loving arms of a dream that came true.

(yes, you save me. You are my dream come true.....o damn, how i love you so much!.....My cute bald asshole!)

The Fear of Relapse (a special entry to the past)

2004-08-20T10:11:00.000+08:00

In every crowd, I look for your face. In every face, I search for your deep eyes that seems to suck me in to the oblivion. I still look for you. Even i know that I wont see you here.

Will I ever forget the time that we ahve been together, and even more the time that we are apart?....Such a bitter-sweet curse yuo have bestowed upon me but I only have myself to blame.I have a passion for desiring you,every inch of you. Every piece of thought that you have.It is a bitter-sweeet curse youhave bestowed upon me but Ionly have myself to blame.

Your name is like a tattoo in my chest, deep and painful. But I only have myself to
blame.You still linger in my mind, up to this very moment.Though I only have myself to blame.

I do not intend to pursue you. I will not do that anymore.Though I dont consider what I did a mistake. I just cant afford to be hurt once again by the same person again and again. But if hurting again would mean that I will be with you once again, I might take the risk. I might find myself swimming in my own tears again because of you.Although youthought me todry my tears up. And now I have dry eyes.But I only have myself to blame.

It is clear that I will NEVER forget you, but I hope that is as far as youwill go. For I cannot afford to lose a particular someone beacause of you. You cannot repalace him. You cannot repalce him. You cannot exceed to the devotion he has given me. You cannot be him. He cannot be you.

A vow/promise I made to sink you into void is broken. I can only fear you. I can only fear myself of falling once again in those deep eyes, gentle touch and sweet kisses of yours. But I cant afford to lose him beacause of you.

It is good that you are there and I am here. It is good that you are the past and HE is the present.I just hope that HE is my future and NOT YOU.

But I only have myself to blame.

Thoughts lang.

2004-08-19T12:24:00.000+08:00

to think about it, one cannot really define love, for its only a feeling that one expresses.

Love is not a thing that comes from the heart, as a matter of fact, it is an activity of the brain. And most the time, of hormones.

kaya ng ba, marami ang buntis ngayon....

******
lech, marami na ang nakakaalam ng blogspot. And I hate it.

mother fucker, ang init kanina.

buti na lng, napakalamig dito.

********

gusto ko ng matulog.

Concert Chuva!

2004-08-18T10:34:00.000+08:00

yap! masya! I'm not a fan(well,ngayon, di ko alam....) pero man, that concert rocks.....

mas masaya sana kung sa open field ginanap...heheeh....astig.

Ang kulit nga namin ni rhumcoke eh.....hahahahah....

ang pangit ng mga bouncer, they surely bounce off the walls!

I thought, Kuya jay's friends will be gwapo....but they're not. tsk!

ayan, ang bait ko tuloy.

ayus rin pala na maging mabait...noh?....hehehehe

see you sa mga sususnod pang mga concert....

a. keys, you're next!

Damn BrOoommm....

2004-08-16T10:12:00.000+08:00

Ala me magawa, bakit hindi tayo lumipad memya?....

Bangenge dahil naglaba ako kagabi, ng mga damit na dapat ay si nanay ang maglalba, wala, ako rin ang naglaba....masakit sa kamay ang surf. Try nyo.

2am na ako natulog pero hindi pa ako inaantok non, para bang lahat ng kape na nainom ko buong buhay ko, kagabi lang umepekto.Pero, natulog lang din ako. Hindi pala. ah ewan.

Lahat ng ito ay may ibig sabihin. Lalo na sa mga taong bobo, katulad ko.

May kabuluhan ba ang buhay?

Ah ewan, basta ako, amy c.d nako ng trip kong musika, mahal ko kayo, (kahit di nyo ko mahal), ayos na ko.

hahahaha...wlang sense ang blog sa araw na ito!

I eat my own words!

2004-08-13T10:22:00.000+08:00

I was not absent.I was there. i saw you, I think you saw me. Not good. But i;m fine. I'm happy anyway.

I'm better with him.

i said, I would not do this, but I did and i'm so glad i did. I'm happy. At last.

I think I deserve this feeling more than anyone else. I've been through a lot, and I deserve this. (got a problem with that?)

Threfore, I eat my own words. But not all!

Tonight, abstinence.

2004-08-12T14:08:00.000+08:00

Yes, I will be absent tonight but I will be back next weel. So playas, hold your horses. Literally.

Teaser.

2004-08-11T10:21:00.001+08:00

Do you know what is a teaser?...its something or someone that lures you to look for more behind a certain action or thing that tickles your interest.

it's good to be one... You leave someone craving more from you, it makes other people insane and wanting for more...more, more.

I think its a very good ingredient if you plan to keep someone. Or if plan to make that someone crazy for you.

sige, itry mo.

sarap on your part.

evil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LoveLy DAY (kahapon)

2004-08-09T10:11:00.000+08:00

Coz, it's a lovely day kahit naulan kahapon.

I'm with my BEAU tapos punta kami sa bahay, tapos food trip, aircon trip sa party ng mga cous kong bata. Sarap mangokray ng 7,000 pesos worth na team up ni batman and the stupid magician na inarkila para sa party.Sarap din kumain ng cotton candy at ice crumble habang nsa malamig na room. Sarap din magcuddle sa mala-hospital na sheets ng kama sa resort.

No comment naman mga parents/relatives ko sa kanya, which is a good thing kasi it means na OK sya. yey!

Ano ba ito, ipinapakilala ko na sya buong angkan ko un tao?....syet!...ibang lebel ito!hehehehe.....

Sarap talaga ng gento, I hope magatagal pa ito or better yet, wla na lang iwanan...para masaya....

MAsarap ang may minamahal....kahit naulan, magiging LoveLy daY pa rin.........(thea, hindi kita iniinggit!)

Was It Something I did'nt say???

2004-08-05T10:12:00.000+08:00

Of course, I have nothing to say.

i just feel that i need to write something, about things that I dont say. Or I did not say.Or I will never say but words are just words. And If i did say them to you, even If i vowed never to say them, they are just words.

One, morning, i got up from a very paceful sleep.

and then someone txt me to meet him/her at vega.

And now, I have nothing to say.

BREAST!

2004-08-03T21:03:00.001+08:00

yes, in this blog entry, i will talk about breast.

as I stare blanky in one my class, I had this sudden urge to write somethingabout the human breast.

Isn't it a very odd looking part of the body?
i mean, it's just like that.Nothingmore to it. Oblonged or circled, it's just like that.

A weird part (as if there is any other part) is the nipple. Its varies colors and size (just like the breast itself). It is very sensitive. It's brings about a certain pleasure/pain in diff. levels. But it can never (as in never) bring about climax. Right? It's just a big lump of "pang bitin"..got it?)

Naisip ko lang, size really does nto matter, at least for some, kasi, it's the same thing din naman...ano ba ang maganda sa malaking boobs?Freaky nga eh kung iisipin mo tlga...I mean you have these very odd lo0kng thing hanging from your chest. Tapos, malaki pa....Bigat siguro nun.

I once had this housemate, who got enormous breasts tlga. e kaso, her breast does not defy gravity, kaya aun...laylay.Sayang din, asan ang aesthetic value non?wala!

What If i were one big breast?..Paano ako kakain?Paano ako matutulog? Siguro pag hinawakan ako, sobrang lagi akong aroused, pero I can never climax.Nasaan kaya ang mata ko? E pano ako magsasalita?.....ayoko maging isang malaking breast!!!!!

(reminded lang ako ng novel na "the breast")

"women will always be beautiful, with or without breast."

*a tribute to breast cancer victims* ---AzHeL

BREAST!

2004-08-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

31st days

2004-08-02T10:26:00.000+08:00

wahOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!...awwww yeah...happy!

eh, gento yan eh...

kapag unang month nyo together..ganito...

preparation: magipon at bilhin ang c.d ng fave nyang banda....mangulit sa tower rec. para sa rare c.d na ito...ibalot sa papapel,lagyahn ng sulat at dalhin sa araw ng monthsary nyo

1. magsimba kayo.
2. kumain sa 7-11
3. pumunta sa tambayan nyong comp shop.
4. puntahan ang tambayan noyng tropa.
5. kumain.
6. tumambay sa may waiting shed at pagusapan ang mga hindi naaalala nung mga panahon n kayo ay sabik at lasing.
7. see future together na para ba tlagang kayo na an magkakatuluyan(bakit hindi ba?)
8.kiss him goodnyt!
9.tell him how much you love him.
10. Tell him how good he is in...you know what!

results: a very happy monthsary....daig mo pa ang naka jutz!

I'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

last night.....(this morning)

2004-07-30T10:28:00.000+08:00

hmm.....

a big decision in my life.....love life to be exact.

all are going too fast, but this feels right.

I hope its right....

Taking the relationship in a higher level ...(and NO, Im not talking about sex!)

Much more higher than that......deeper even.

if only we're ready(I think we are...but not that much).....but the situation both of us are in now....its just too hard...

But i'd love to do this....not with anyone else, but with him....OnLY!!!

If not now, later.....later....later.....

I never thought I could reach this"far" with someone I've known for two months.

I know you'll say Im just young and fierce. MAybe I am, but i know its more than that.

much more than that.

when that day comes.....imbitado kayo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*wedding bellls*

The "good" in good morning!

2004-07-29T10:00:00.000+08:00

hi good morning!.....

i dont know, but I feel that this will be a goooooooooddddd day........

or i just feel good.

i have an exam,and a book to finish....which i still did not finished....but i oddly still feel good.

hmmm........somethings fishy.......maybe,all the while,nothing good will happen today, its just nature's way of decieving me....

He! puta! napaka nagative ko tlga....

good or bad, just enjoy the day....be glad na masaya ka! puta tlaga oh...

******

mga tol....gen is sick...she's so sick...she'll leave skool....puta!

help my kambal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This Day Fucks!...Big time!

2004-07-27T10:00:00.000+08:00

shit, he did not show up yesterday.What the fuck is happening to me/us

here I am, finally meeting someone who seriously devotes wverything to me and i go fuck all things up.

My original plan is to.....simply go with the damn flow, not investing anything at all. But i realized that it's impossible! Along the way, i got hurt. Y?

guilt?
Im genuinely hurt coz i love him?

I do not know.....

All I know is, Im expereiencing hurt, again.

But this time it's all my fault.

ITS ALL MY FUCKING FAULT!

can I die right now? Can someone kill me pls!!!!!!!!!! so I could divert the pain physically rather than emotionally and all this shit will be over and done with! Please! someone kill me quick!

And the shit thats inmy life is all my fucking fault!

Im a fucker! Im all Fucked up! This day fucks!

FUCK THIS!

mental note: dont give up yet!

2004-07-25T21:11:00.000+08:00

I am mean!

Not just mean as lightly mean but hell mean.

I make people feel bad...especially the people who love me most.

Puta, ano ba!...I love him, why the hell am I doing this kind of shit to him?Puta tlga.

Pag eto, nwala sakin..I only have myself to blame. I hope that day wont come.

aNo ba, emo pa tugtog dito........miss ko tuloy sya...

Sana, mapatawad nya ko............coz I love him so much.

i dont want to give him up...............................yet.

manic thursday!

2004-07-22T13:56:00.000+08:00

Im so tired...and I still got this dance thing going on later.

I hope I pass this some kind of shit I got into into....

dont get me wrong, I love dancing but I hope I really get something from this. HA!

I miss some people.

ok, I miss one person.

him. yeah. Still him. Not my skaterboy, not my boy, not any boy.

I just miss him. A lot. Sobra.

he told me that I cant forget him until I reach 18. Well, he's wrong, coz Im 18 and i still cant forget about him.

Will his spell over me end?

I love to hate thursdays...specially when Im missing him.(sigh)

Its my F*cking birthday!

2004-07-21T12:55:00.000+08:00

and hell yeah! I feel so happy today!...............

actually, kagabi, sinalubong namen..o damn, ang saya tlga...parang lahat ng usto ko mangyari, nagyari kahapon/kanina..........

its reallY a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

I really fell....good today...kahit gumanja ako kagabi...hyper pa rin...

astig! sana araw araw birthday ko.........

amok!

2004-07-18T11:08:00.000+08:00

Ano ba naghahanap lang ba ako ng away or what?

Dunno kasi what the fuck am i doing,

I have a great guy but then...................................................................................

Ang Hirap maging player!

kaya lang nanm ako natuto ng "game" eh kasi, ive been played....twice!

Now I know the game..........aint nobody gonna mess with me.

Regrets.........

2004-07-16T10:27:00.000+08:00

haY salamaT!.....nabreak n rin un one week ore more na panaginip ko....yehey!.

not that I dont want to dream of him kaso, kakasawa na eh...peace!

LAst night may malaki akong katangaahan na ginawa...My "skaterboi" was calling na pala kagabi...I didnt want to answer kasi inaantok n ko ska baka wla akong masabi...pero syet paggising ko, 11 misscalls.......

haaayyy...putangina, what could have happened if sinagot ko?....ano ba, naiiinis nnam ako sa sarili ko eh...

chance na yun diba?....

fuck!

I hope to heavens that he'll call or text me................................................................

Dreamer

2004-07-15T14:44:00.000+08:00

HAla, one week na or more na nkong nanannaginip of the same person........

Him.

Tangina diba?.....you, being paod and all...kasama mo n nga buong hapon/gabi, pati sa pagtulog mo, sya pa rin kasama mo....minsan nga ayoko n matulog.....

kakasawa na ksi.

Yun mga gusto mong mapanaginipan eh,hindi mo napapanaginipan....leche nanm oh.

ano ba?ganito ba ko kainlove sa taong to na hanggang sa pagtulog ko eh sya pa rin???????

kakainis naman oh.

thanksgiving!

2004-07-14T10:20:00.000+08:00

Another wednesday, and yah, I know that the few days of this week was a bit not what they usually are. With all the drama this week, i'm ready for a good sesh of drinking..

anyone?

hehehhe...I miss my tropa in calamba. they are the good one in drinking.

************

To all the peeps that helped get through for the past few days, man, I thank God I have the greatest friends anyone could have!

*clap*clap*!!!!!

I love you guys!

i hope the rest of the week wil be good.

yes, i'm calm now. Good.

thanks to my loving friends.

You dont know me.....

2004-07-14T05:47:00.000+08:00

yah, i'"Forgave" him.

but hell no will I forget.

you cant mess with this biatch!.....Dont be mad at me.. you cant blame me coz it's your fucking fault in the first place....You made me do this.

I aint through with yah.

yes, i'm mad. and what?

I need to do this.

only prob is, you cant catch me. Coz Im good.

you dont know me.

tangina mo!

2004-07-12T19:09:00.000+08:00

ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate this, i've been played, again....

buti sana kung gwapo at mayaman ka...

kaso you're not!

tangina mo!

tangina, eto n namn,.......sabi ko n nga ba eh...to think na hindi p tyo natagal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shit! I hate this feeling, angst n namn...kala ko magiging msaya ako syo!!!!!!!!

You make me feel worthless......I hope you're happy!...

fuck you!

I hope you read this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Desires Of the FlesH......bitch!

2004-07-09T10:31:00.000+08:00

o syeT!.....I am oficially tigang!

damn, its hard to have a boyfriend and not "do" anything about a certain thing....y'all know what I mean.

I know I have principles and all that shit. But hey, I'm just a ki that wants to try things......

but the lack of "place" does not give me the liberty to do so.

putangina!

I hate school. I hate myself. I hate life!.

kill me now. Kill me quick!

please!

If On a winter's night, a bugler (not a traveller)

2004-07-08T16:14:00.000+08:00

I love to hate books.

those things that cost more than they actually should. You can live in l.b for a week for that price.

but it's all worthit(daw?)

I love to read books, but I cant afford to buy my own.(yeah,broke!)

Or should I stea one?....where? friends'?, ninang's? but not at a book store of course!bobo!

I'm just hanged up on our eng4 class. though its my favorite class and i love the teacher. Wala lang, i just feel...wasted...tired....but i dont blame Italo Calvino for that....or am i?

a blog entry about a book......What a nerd!....hehehehe...I love it!

The Perks Of Living In a Dorm....

2004-07-08T01:30:00.000+08:00

One thing. You have to get along with your roommate.

Lucky for me my room mate is cool. But not that cool. I mean she's not that cool as me. We are not at the same level of thinking.I'm more of the liberated and 'asyig" side. She's a bit laylow. But I think there is also a devvil in her. If you know what i mean.

Another is lack of freedom.

i've lived in an apt last sem and yes we did have freedom.drinking sesh, taking home boys. hehehehe......now thats another thing. PeaCe!

And now that I have a boyfriend.Shet! we have no place to makeOut....That's all that I want, a healthy dose of LOvIn...hehehehhe...

but no, we dont have a place coz I live in a dorm where the visitors are not allowed inside the rooms. FucK this!

I promise. I'll never live in adorm ever again.

Help me find a place!

ah...first time....

2004-07-07T00:01:00.000+08:00

My first blog ever!....what The hell am I goona do with it?..what if I dont have annything to say?......why do people do this anyway...has buying a journal become so 90's and this is the new trend...or are people doing this just to say "hey, pls visit my ONLINE blog" to appear somewhat cool?...why am I doing this in the first place?....

well. I can do anything I want and No one can ever stop me! got it? good.

what am i to write?

well...Im not in the writing mood right now.

but I will tell you this. I will use explicit words (especially on very bad occasions).if y'all got problem with that, then just go!...Fuck you!